046: Resisting that Irresistible Urge to Spend & Inspirational Reading 2/21 “Cost vs. Price”

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00:48 Resisting that Irresistible Urge to Spend
I read from an article I found about a woman in the U.K. who is pleading for help to keep from compulsively spending the rent money she hasn’t been able to pay for six months, due to a problem with the landlords.

08:07 Inspiration from the Daily Reader for Compulsive Debtors and Spenders: February 21st: “Cost vs. Price”

10:00 A note about the inspirational readings
I want you to know that you can benefit from these readings whether you are in a 12 step recovery program or not.

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045: Five Reasons to Ignore Valentine’s Day & Inspirational Reading 2/14 “Valentine’s Day: A Plea for Sanity”

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00:52 Five Reasons to Ignore Valentine’s Day
In today’s podcast, I try to help you get right-minded about Valentine’s Day. Once you listen to this episode, I guarantee you won’t ever look at it the same way! I’ve posted a more extensive article on the subject, called “Why I Ignore Valentine’s Day and Why You Should Too” on Medium.

08:15 Inspiration from the Daily Reader for Compulsive Debtors and Spenders: February 14th: “Valentine’s Day: A Plea for Sanity”

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039: Year Themes, Try These Tips Today, & Inspirational Reading 1/1 “Resolutions”

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1:28 More about Choosing a Theme for the Year
I continue talking about resolutions vs. goals vs. themes and why a theme may be the best idea for the upcoming year.

06:37 A Couple of Ideas to Help You Shift Your Relationship with Money Now
Just a few ideas you can implement easily and quickly that may give your year a jump start around having a healthier relationship with money and spending.

08:32 Inspiration from the Daily Reader for Compulsive Debtors and Spenders: January 1st: “Resolutions”

Music Attribution

“Life of Riley” (Intro and Outro), “Carpe Diem,” “Crusade,” “Cuban Sandwich,” “Fearless First” by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)
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038: Paradoxical Reactions, Preparing for Next Year, & Inspirational Reading 12/25 “Benevolence”

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1:03 Paradoxical Reactions
I talk about my experience with medication where I have the opposite reaction from what is intended, and explain why that is similar to how many of us react around the holiday. Then, I give a couple of suggestions about how to move past the possibly negative emotions we experience during this time of year.

08:57 Preparing for Next Year
I talk about how you can move out of the negative emotions that surround the holidays by preparing for next year. I give you a two-step process to follow. The first part is looking at your accomplishments from the year just past and setting some goals for the upcoming year.

But I give very specific instructions on the types of goals it’s best to set and why certain goals will just set you up for failure. Plus, I talk to you about the process of using a “God box” (make your own and call it whatever you’d like – “Higher Power box,” “HP box,” “Sacred box,” “Fred’s box,” you get the idea).

At time stamp 13:20, I talk specifically about what types of goals to set if you are a compulsive spender still in the throes of your addiction.

After listening, I’d love to hear about your accomplishments and goals. Just leave them in the Comments section of this episode (below)!

17:08 Inspiration from the Daily Reader for Compulsive Debtors and Spenders: December 25th: “Benevolence”

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037: A Perfect Day for Recovery & Inspirational Reading 12/24 “Breaking the Cycle”

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00:50 It’s a Perfect Day for Recovery
You don’t have to wait until January 1st to begin your recovery from compulsive spending! I tell you why today (a week before Christmas and Hanukkah) is the absolutely perfect day to begin!

Read the post for this podcast on our sister site: Getting Out from Going Under

08:29 Inspiration from the Daily Reader for Compulsive Debtors and Spenders: December 24th: “Breaking the Cycle”

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As I write this, it’s a little over a week before Christmas and Hanukkah. And it came to me that it’s the perfect day to begin a recovery program or to re-commit to recovery around compulsive spending. What better time to let your addiction know that you mean business then to affirm your commitment in the midst of the frenzied spending around the holidays.

In fact, if you suffer from any addiction, now is the time to get the help you need to become and stay sober or abstinent or clean or solvent or authentic or whatever describes your addiction. This is the season of excess, whether it’s food, money, sex, alcohol, people-pleasing, anxiety, sadness, anger, or whatever else you are powerless over.

I’ll tell you why this came up for me today. I attend a Debtors Anonymous (DA) meeting where we read and share on DA pamphlets. This week, while working through the Recovery from Compulsive Spending pamphlet, we read and discussed “suggestions that have helped many D.A. members recover from the pain of compulsive spending.” (from the pamphlet)

It was when we read this bullet point that I had my epiphany! “Attend D.A. meetings regularly for group support to counteract advertising and other societal pressures to spend and debt.”

Now, I’ve long heard people in various programs talk about the importance of attending meetings so we can give back what we’ve so generously been given, and how newcomers need meetings to really understand how 12 Step programs work and to develop a network of support.

But I’d never thought about meetings as a tool and a defense against the consumer marketing monster and societal messages urging us to spend money. And when is there more pressure on people for such a sustained period to buy, buy, buy as the lead up to Christmas, Hanukkah, and other December holidays? So when would there be a better time to get support than when the clock is ticking down to frenzied gift buying during this holiday season? You can make a commitment to recovery from compulsive spending to keep you sober with money now, today, not next week or next year.

Sure, there are other holidays where we feel pressured to buy. Never mind the other days that give us an opportunity to practice love, consideration, and giving of ourselves. I’m thinking of all those stupid Hallmark holidays that insist that the only way to show your mother or father you love them is to buy them an extravagant gift you probably can’t afford, which must be given to them on a particular Sunday in May or June in order to count.

Then there’s the message that you’d better give a big fat piece of jewelry to someone on a random day in February along with chocolate and flowers or someone will be hurt and believe you don’t love him or her. (don’t get me started about Valentine’s Day and where that holiday came from! Here is a link to an article I wrote about that.)

And, of course, there’s the Friday after Thanksgiving. But I’ve already covered why that’s the day for amateur spenders in this article, so you don’t need to bother even revving up your engines.

But the month of December is the granddaddy of spectacular spending pressure … because it starts in November! And there are so many gifts we think we need to buy. For compulsive spenders, once we make that first out of control or “I have to or they’ll be upset” purchase, we don’t know where it will end. But it’s usually not a happy ending. So why not stop it now?

You don’t have to wait until January 1st to make the decision and commitment to recover from compulsive spending. You can start today. Yes, you can.

Now, I’m about to say something shocking.

Are you ready?

You could cut up all your credit cards and cancel all the accounts today (or even just one account).

Oh no, I just heard a collective gasp from you all.

OK, breathe.

I realize you are probably going to need help to accomplish that step. I’m just saying you could do it in theory. Listen, I’m not suggesting you run a marathon today, but you can start by taking a walk around the block today. You can start by asking for help with your addiction.

You can get support to help you have a sober holiday season this year. There’s nothing magical about January 1st. People in recovery don’t make a list of resolutions once a year because we recommit to our recovery every day.

In fact, if you begin now, you can start to work on your spending plan for next year, so that you won’t be scrambling around holiday spending next December.

That’s why I say that there’s no better day for recovery than today. Stand up to your disease and you can have an army of support behind you.

Remember, there is no need to hit a bottom any lower than the one you’ve already hit. You can choose today to be Day One of recovery. There are many who have been just where you are who are waiting and wanting to help you. You may not know it yet, but there’s also an arsenal of tools available to support you.

If you are suffering from feeling beaten down by your compulsive spending, and know that you are just winding up to create more out of control debt during this holiday season, why not give 12 Step recovery a try? Both Debtors Anonymous and Underearners Anonymous have many phone meetings, which are incredibly convenient, as well as lots of live meetings.

Yes, I know that there is not just one road to recovery. But this is a road I have personally walked and I paid off over $34,000 of debt in seven years and I am still living within my means today (just one day at a time). And, just so you know, I only attend phone meetings. Plus, 12 Step Fellowships are 100% free for members.

All the help you need is just waiting for you to walk through the door or pick up the phone. It is offered freely and given to you with love. And it is available today and every day you want it, one day at a time.

036: Gift Giving Guilt & Inspirational Reading 12/15 “Holiday Gift Pressure”

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00:47 Gift Giving Guilt
You still have time to keep from creating a mountain of debt around holiday gift giving. I’m here to give you a pep talk and some tips on how to make it through without creating financial chaos.

Read the post for this podcast on our sister site: Getting Out from Going Under

06:00 Inspiration from the Daily Reader for Compulsive Debtors and Spenders: December 15th: “Holiday Gift Pressure”

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“Life of Riley” (Intro and Outro), “Carpe Diem,” “Christmas Rap” by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)
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Pay it Fast or Pay it Slow?

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arealcompulsivespenderaI’ve often said that for a true compulsive spender, living in deprivation is a sure way to set off the compulsion. Now, that is not the same as living within one’s means, which may include not buying everything we want the moment we want it.

However, I stand by my belief and that of those in 12 step recovery from compulsive spending, that we do not put our creditors first. We do not live in abject deprivation in order to pay off our debts quicker.

Now, I know Dave Ramsey is one of the top gurus of personal finance and responsibility. I get it. However, as I’ve told you before, his philosophy is all well and good for everyone … except compulsive spenders.

The Experts Don’t Understand Us

Look, experts like Dave Ramsey and Suze Orman provide amazing tools and guidance to help people make sound financial decisions and get out of debt, but for those struggling with compulsive spending, there’s just no way they can simply “pull themselves up by the bootstraps” and live responsibly with money, as these experts advise. Plus, as I have said, compulsive spenders often feel shamed by the implied message that they could succeed if only they tried harder. And that very thought, in fact, has caused me to go on a spending binge more times than you can imagine. Or maybe not, if you’re like me.
Until you deal with the underlying addiction, all the tools in the world are meaningless. But let’s say you do start to recover whether it’s through 12 step recovery or some other method. The fact is that if you are a true compulsive spender, you will do best with a balanced spending plan that enables you to live with some wants as well as needs while you pay off your debts.

I know this because my own experience, and those of others, shows me time and time again that, otherwise, we bounce between excessive restriction and breaking out of that prison into spending binges.

Paying Off Debt in Record Time Means an Unbalanced Life

So, when I, once again, heard Dave Ramsey lauding the efforts of a young man explaining how he paid off $41,000 in student loans in 13 and a half months, I wanted to cry.

Now, please bear in mind that this guy never said he was a compulsive spender. This was student loan he was repaying. But if you are a real compulsive spender and hear this story, I don’t want you to be deluded into thinking this is the path to recovery. No! The path to recovery is to learn sanity around spending money.

He says that he worked so much that there wasn’t time to spend money. Yeah, well for any true compulsive spender, there’s ALWAYS time to spend money. And the build up of pressure will only cause people like us to find a release valve … which is usually buying something … or a lot of somethings.

For me, sobriety means that I balance recovery, life, work, and repaying my debts. In his nightmare scenario, there was nothing but debt repayment. Hearing this story is manna for our addiction. Whoopeee! Let’s get our adrenaline really amped up and use force of will.

Trust me, it just doesn’t work for a real compulsive spender.

Free at Last!

In the episode, this man talked about working up to 80 hours a week in the beginning, missed vacations with his friends, and basically had no life at all. He was, naturally, jubilant about becoming debt-free and said he has plenty of cash flow. The implication is that since there’s money, life is grand.

Yeah, unless he’s a real compulsive spender who reacts to zero balances the same way a race horse reacts to the sound of the start pistol.

Two things. I’m not arguing that we can make choices about where we spend our money. So, maybe it was sober to skip the vacations. Sounds sober to me. But what doesn’t sound sane or sober is to stop doing anything that can balance out one’s life and to make one’s creditors our Higher Power. Secondly, it’s great that he has a tremendous cash flow. Not everyone does, though. And that makes balance even more important for those of us who need to recover from both the addiction and accept the reality that we only have so much money available.

Ramsey praises him for getting this done in a year and says it’s a “band-aid rip-off.” Ramsey also called this guy a hero.
Now, why on earth would we applaud living life so out of balance?

How I Hit My Bottom & Paid Off $34,000 in Debt

Right before coming back into recovery in 2009, I hit my bottom. I was $34,000 in debt. My son was getting ready to go to college. I had put away money for tuition, but hadn’t considered housing and living expenses, which would be another $7,000 more per year. Where was I going to get another $7,000?

When there was nowhere to turn, I hit my bottom. The depth of my pain, shame, and self-loathing were indescribable. One non-compulsive spender friend tried to be helpful and advised me to get rid of cable tv, eat canned food, and live on a tight budget to get it all paid off as quickly as possible and be able to pay for my son’s expenses. The Dave Ramsey path, right?

But just hearing it made me feel much, much worse. I knew, all too well, how many times I had made solemn promises to myself and others to put the brakes on. I had paid off thousands and thousands in debt before, only to believe the lie that I was cured and rack up even more debt the next time. Oh yeah, sure, I would just grin and bear it, live a life of complete austerity. Get that debt paid off. And never do it again.

I always had the best of intentions every time. But inevitably, within short order, I found myself blasting out of the self-imposed imprisonment with even more credit card debt and more stuff that I was convinced I would die if I didn’t buy.
Hitting this bottom, I knew I couldn’t do it their way. But I knew in my heart that there was a better way. Because I had found it before and walked away from it after paying off $22,000 of debt in early 2000s. See what I mean? It’s a progressive disease. $22,000 then, $34,000 in 2009.

Again, there is not just one path. But the way I was able to make a shift was through the 12 steps. And through working those steps and with the support of others who had gone before me, I was able to see clearly that the budget mentality, that putting my creditors first, that living in utter deprivation was just another tool my disease used to beat me up. And the weirdly bizarre ability of my addict mind to forget the pain once I experienced some relief was the biggest lie I had to face … and overcome. Because it is only by not forgetting that I am willing to continue in recovery once the pain is removed.

Once again, I was helped by others to develop a reasonable spending plan, not a budget, where I could have my needs met, some wants satisfied, and still work toward paying off my then $34,000 of credit card debt. Now, you can hear my explanation of the difference between a budget and a spending plan in episode 14 – icantstopspending/014.

The next year, 2010, I became disabled, and eventually lost half of my income. Still, my support system helped me refine my spending plan, which did mean, yes, I had to cut back even further, but not cut out. I contacted the credit card company and negotiated a hardship reduction in my payments without an increase in my interest rate (an unbelievable 2.99%, which is another miracle). But I continued to live within my means one day at a time, and still make regular payments to the credit card company.

Yes, there were pain points, there were agony points, but there was no spending binge backlash from not allowing myself to have any enjoyments of life, because I felt a need to punish myself by living in complete deprivation as penance for what I had done.

For non-compulsive spenders, maybe such a choice is just that. Penance. And maybe for a goal-oriented overachieving non-compulsive spender, it would make sense. But for this compulsive spender, I would never have made it.

So, instead of paying off my $34,000 in a year, I paid it off in seven. But in the end, I am just as debt-free as the man in Dave Ramsey’s podcast. And I didn’t have to destroy my health further or punish myself as a penance.

And because of this recovery, which is even more conscientious than my previous one, I didn’t lie to myself afterwards that
I could now do it on my own. I made sure that I remember the truth. I know I am powerless over compulsive spending and debt and need to wrap myself in the program of recovery that saved my life. And, by the way, everything worked out with my son’s college expenses.

So unlike the old me, and many I have known, I didn’t return to my old ways after I finished paying off the debt. I didn’t feel like I deserved a reward for getting out of debt and paying penance.

I implore you, if you are a true compulsive spender, heed my words. There is no need for you to destroy your life to pay back your creditors. Be responsible. Get help to figure out what you need to live, and how to find balance between the needs, the wants, and the debt. But please, don’t make your creditors your HP.

This time, my reward is continuing to live one day at a time within my means and not having to go through this process ever again. If I don’t pick up the credit card, I will never again have to pay off debt. If I don’t make the first compulsive purchase, I will never have a spending binge again. Today, I have tools that wrap me in a cloak of protection against the demon. yes, the demon may speak to me. I may even make a poor spending decision here and there. But like the prince in Sleeping Beauty, I have a sword to cut through the brambles and keep that demon at bay, a sword of recovery that will help me to reach my goal of sobriety that keeps me safe as long as I use it, so that one day at a time, I never have to go down the rabbit hole of addiction with money ever again.

The Magical Tool of Delayed Gratification

And by the way, there was another incredibly valuable lesson I learned by not behaving compulsively around paying off my debt. Believe me, there were times I wanted to move it along faster. But my support people were amazing in holding me back.
The lesson I learned was about delayed gratification. I saved this for last, because if you have never yet experienced it, you won’t understand why this is so miraculous. But once you do, you get it.

I often say that delayed gratification is the forgotten magical tool of recovery. If I plowed through, paying the debt off at the expense of all else, I wouldn’t have really experienced the spiritual fulfillment of that day when it was finally paid off. Instead, I would have drowned in a sea of exhaustion and adrenaline. And by the way, it would have been not much different from coming down off a spending binge.

Any spending, even debt repayment, can make me high. The point of recovery and sobriety around money is to learn how to spend in a balanced manner. The point of recovery around debt and spending is not to race to the finish line, but to learn to find serenity and peace on the journey.

034: Pay it Fast or Pay it Slow? & Inspirational Reading 11/28: Fit Spiritual Condition

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00:54 Should You Pay Your Debts Off Fast or Pay Them Slow?

Read the post for this podcast on our sister site: Getting Out from Going Under

arealcompulsivespenderaOnce again, I take exception with Dave Ramsey’s philosophy when it comes to compulsive spenders. I explain why revving your engines and going all in to get that debt paid off in record time just won’t work for true compulsive spenders.

16:46 Inspiration from the Daily Reader for Compulsive Debtors and Spenders: November 28th: “Fit Spiritual Condition”

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027: Tips to Prevent Compulsive Spending Part 1 & Inspirational Reading 10/9: “The Best”

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01:00 Tips to Prevent Compulsive Spending Part 1
First in a series of podcast episodes giving you some tips to help prevent compulsive spending.

10:54 Inspiration from the Daily Reader for Compulsive Debtors and Spenders: October 9th: “The Best”


Music Attribution

“Life of Riley” (Intro and Outro), “Carpe Diem,” and “Fretless” by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)
Licensed under Creative Commons: By Attribution 3.0 License
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How I can help you with your spending plan
I can help you overcome the fear of looking at your numbers, create the foundation for your spending plan, and provide one-on-one technical help to teach you how to use your spending plan software. Click the link above to read more.


I’d love to hear your thoughts about this podcast. Please share your comments, questions, and suggestions. You can leave a voice message if you have a microphone (see the link on the right side of each page and on the Contact page), email me from the Contact page, or leave a comment.